I think you having the courage to post this on a public forum says more about you than you realize. It says to me you want good out of life. But it's hard to even attain that because everything else seems shitty. But you still have the undying hope that tomorrow may change, even in the slightest.

Don't give up. Don't ever give up.

I know. You have those days where everything seems pointless. And it gets in your head so bad, it affects you physically. So you start feeling tired and run down and that turns into a cycle you can't seem to escape.

But you still have hope. It's such a dumb concept. But it's what make you get up in the morning. And one day, you'll realize nothing in this world will improve your life until you improve yourself. So go out there and fight for a better life. Learn from your mistakes. Get all the advice you can about everything. Make the changes you want to happen in your life.

First, stand up straight. Hold your head up. Second, improve your wardrobe. Wear clothes that fit and look nice. Take care of your body. Good hygiene goes a long way. Third, improve your mind. You have no skills? Acquire them. Batman wasn't born the goddamn Batman. He worked for that shit. Read a metric fuckton. You don't have to memorize that shit. But let it improve your thinking. Let it improve your vocabulary. Forth, be around better people. Find friends who like you for you and don't just want shit from you.

I know it sounds likes a tall order. But don't stare at the top of the mountain. Look at the trail before you and start walking. Before you know it, you'll be conquering that mountain. You'll get to a summit, take a look around, and say to yourself "holy fuck, look how far I've come".