Thank you so much for your sympathy and your reply. I've always described my difficulties as an "input sensory disorder" and if someone asks or I feel compelled to tell them, I say I am hyper aware of sensory information, especially sights and sounds, and I find it difficult to focus on one thing while blocking out all of the extra sensory information. My abilities to cope directly respond to my blood sugar (I'm hypoglycemic) and hormones but sometimes even if I eat well and often and I'm not supposed to be hormonal everything is too much to handle and I shut down and sometimes have anxiety attacks. I have to go to a quiet place and close my eyes and kind of hold myself.

Thankfully my boyfriend is very understanding and patient with me but I often will sit and suffer without telling anyone to stop because I feel that my request is strange and petty and most people are angry or defensive or don't understand. I feel like I don't deserve the peace of focus I crave because this sensitivity seems so silly sometimes.

I agree with peripheral movement feeling like it's happening very close to you, and there's an almost violent nature about it. Also bizarre behavior, that I don't understand, really bothers me. Like if someone is picking at the ends of their hair or compulsively stroking it or touching their finger tips together and rubbing them and clicking their nails. I find these very hard to filter out.

Your white noise devices are very intriguing to me. I am twenty years old and have been struggling with this for about a decade. My parents never made much of an effort to take me to doctors or to discover the what the disorder was and so I feel I haven't properly explored ulterior methods of treatment (besides sheer will). Have you ever heard of a medication which would help or is it a fairly rare condition?

How long have you struggled with this? Have you ever met others who have similar difficulties?

Thanks!