I have a friend whose girlfriends I know very well, and she was sexually assaulted and raped as well, except she was not drugged. The perpetrator was caught and jailed for several years, but not nearly as many as he should have, as he was charged as a juvenile.

Anyways, I feel your pain, as silly as that sounds...because in a way, I never will; I'll never really understand what it feels like to be a woman and have to always look out for yourself to avoid situations like this, encounter situations like this, and cope with all of this terrible pain you're probably going through right now.

Me, I would be scared out of my mind. I would be petrified; devastated; wreaked; emotionally devastated, and maybe even obliterated. But if I could give you any advice, I would first advise you to remove those images. No one would post something like this unless they really meant it, and if there are assholes out there who don't believe you, well they can come talk to me, or any other good-spirited person that has commented right here. Even still, I can totally empathize with your reasons behind posting them.

Secondly, I would advise you to stay as positive as humanly possible at this point in time( and I do realize how difficult and awkward that may feel at this time :( ). Don't get down on yourself. You're a good person, I can already tell :)

Lastly, recognize that there are people that WOULD do this to you in the world, and they're out there. Trust me, I want real justice for this person; they should be put away for life. If your boyfriend is as good of a person I would hope he is (because you deserve the best), he should be WAY more than there for you. In fact, most guys I know would have a reaction instinctively to defend you and care for you. When my best friend's GF was raped, he swore he would kill him. And he meant it. If I were put i that situation, I probably would have felt exactly the same, even though I am not a violent person at all. Point is, all guys react differently, I'm sure he'll be more than there for you there

Just know there are good and caring people in the world who will be there to express empathy and compassion for you when you need it most, and won't ask anything for you in return. I try my best to be one of those people, and so many people on this thread ARE those people. Stay close to your friends and family, you'll be alright.